Dealing with Mitral Valve Prolapse

When my cardiologist told me that I have Mitral Valve Prolapse, I was really shocked to the point that I got speechless. She explained it the way my parents could understand it the simplest way possible. She assured me that it’s benign though I have to undergo a surgery when it’s severe. After that announcement, I did a lot of research about my illness. My pulmonologist told me to don’t worry about it. I tried to be positive in dealing wih this but there are times when I really get frustrated and wanted to end everything. There are a lot of restrictions; from food to the activities that I enjoyed doing. Everyone wants to live not just exist here on earth. I still have a lot of goals to achieve but having this kind of illness made me feel that I am at my endpoint. But thanks to Wil Dasovich. Watching his vlogs made me realize that I still have a lot of things to do in this world. His vlogs had introduced me to different vloggers that had changed my perspective in life. It made me want to fight more. I never knew that I would really love to learn cooking. Erwan Heussaff vegan recipes had been my inspirations. I hope my parents would approve my vegan ramen soon. Haha! I wish so. With all the things that had been happening, I guess what matters most is how we react to it. Take it from my ultimate hustle idol Jako de Leon. His words had always been on point. The idea of having a good support system had really help. Being with the people I love and trust had been of great help. They’re my light in this time of darkness. I don’t want to enumerate the things that I had been dealing with but I know things will get better soon. To anyone who’s suffering Mitral valve prolapse, remember that we can beat this. Cheers to a better life for us! ☝

Thank You

 ​   I really don’t know where to start while I was writing this. I sent you the link so that I won’t be explaining myself to each one of you my situation. You received it coz you play a big role in my life. Definitely, you’re special. You’re one of the people whom I really treasure. I always receive a message on how I was doing. I think most of you had known about my lung issues. Funny thing is some of you had even  said my lifestyle had been one of the cause why I ended up having it; because of the late night watching my favorite bands. It may have contributed but it’s not. It’s my stress buster. I appreciate every manager that I’ve worked with but definitely you’d feel if it’s worth the shot. Closest people knew that I always try to reach out but I know when to stop. I guess I’m just good at knowing if people really like me or not. Professionalism is very important just like a good relationship. Yes, blame my Psychology teacher. Well, she’s the best. As I’ve mentioned, I know when to stop. So, I resigned. It’s a hard decision but I know it would benefit myself and my family eventually. My lungs are doing fine now. Xray results were excellent. It’s just that last month we found out that I have Congenital Heart Disease. Good thing God prepared me on that day. I was able to meet Sister Sol and we had a good talk while I was eating breakfast. She asked me about my situation and she also had heart issue. I don’t know but I can’t control my tears while we were talking to each other. She said it’s okay to release it. It was an inspiring encounter with her. She shared her life in Cambodia. That’s hours before I found out I have this kind of illness. So, when the doctor told me about my situation, I was really prepared for everything. Well, for all of you who don’t know about this, it is problem in the structure of the heart that is present at birth. In my case, my ECG results were fine but my doctor heard murmurs so our next step is to do the 2D-echo since it’s more accurate. There’s an anterior mitral valve leaflet prolapse. My doctor said the way it pumps is different. You may google it so at least you’ll have an idea. It’s still mild and it’s benign according to her. It’s just that in my case, there’s no medicine to cure it. We can only lessen the rapid breathing of my heart and definitely I should be avoiding myself from strenous activities nor things that could trigger palpitation. I can only undergo operation when it’s severe and according to my research, little chances that people who undergo this kind of operation survive. God knows I still have a lot of things to do in this world. I still have a lot of dreams that I’m slowly reaching one by one. I’m glad that at least I was able to experience a gist of it. If we have known it earlier, for sure I won’t  have a chance to know you. It could have turned out differently. I may not have experience riding on a surfboard nor do wakeboarding or met my favorite musicians whom I can call now friends. 7years working at G was the best years of my life. No one can tell for how long I can be in this world but I’m glad, I was able to have the best people in my life. Don’t be sad coz according to my doctor, I can even give birth. Lol! Yes, it’s true. Well, 31years of existence in this world is something to be thankful for and I’m glad you’ve been part of it. This is not a goodbye letter rather a thank you message for being part of my life.


Nakakatuwang isipin na hanggang ngayon dinadalaw mo parin ako sa panaginip.
Matagal-tagal na din nang nagpasyang kalimutan ka
Dahil alam ko yun ang tama para sa ating dalawa.
Dalawang tao na kailan man di pwedeng lumagpas sa pagkakaibigan…

Nagpapasalamat ako kasi nakilala kita.
Marami akong natutunan sa buhay na ‘to
dahil sa’yo.
Tinuruan mo akong lumaban kahit mag-isa
Na kaya ko naman pala kahit wala sila..
Higit sa lahat ang pahalagahan ang mga bagay na meron ako sa mundong ito.

Maaaring sa panaginip lang tayo masaya
Pero masaya naman talaga kahit magkaibigan lang tayo diba?
Dahil ito ang realidad at di tayo pwedeng mabuhay sa isang panaginip lang.
Sapat na ang makita ka na masaya.
Salamat sa munting alaala na babaunin ko saanman ako mapunta..
Na kahit sa panaginip nandyan ka parin para umalalay lalo na sa mga panahong ako’y nadadapa.
Binago mo ako sa mga panahong gusto ko ng sumuko.
Di ko man nasabi lahat sayo
Pero ikaw ang pinakatamang tao na nakilala ko sa mundong ito kahit hindi man tayo hanggang dulo…



Photo from Ang Kwento Nating Dalawa

Di naman talaga kita dati napapansin
Kaso may pabor ang isang kaibigan at hindi ko sya mahindian.
Tinawag kita sa alam kong pinakamagalang na pamamaraan
Hanggang sa nasasanay na akong banggitin ang iyong pangalan.

Naalala ko pa ang unang araw ng ating pagkikita.
Ayoko talaga ng mga sorpresa
Pero ikaw ang unang sorpresa na nagustuhan ko.
Pinakilala kita sa mga kaibigan ko
At sinabi mo sa kanila kung gaano mo
kamahal ang ginagawa mo.
Dun palang, nabihag mo na ako.

Alam ko naman na simula palang meron nang kayo
At ayokong makisingit sa inyong kwento.
Pinilit kong umiwas pero di ako nakaligtas.
Hanggang sa hulog na hulog na ako…
Nahuhulog sa isang bagay na walang kasiguraduhan…

Pinilit kong tumaya…
Pinilit kong tumaya kasi sabi mo may pag-asa tayo…
Pero masakit sampalin ng isang realidad na mali ito…na simula palang mali na tayo…
At kailangan nang tapusin ang ating kwento…


Third Sean’s Place Experience

​I was at this place by accident and I am very thankful for what had happened. I’m suppose to watch an indiefilm at Bicol University however I wasn’t able to make it due to heavy traffic. Since there were a lot of activities at that time, most of the hotels were fully-booked. Good thing, the tricycle driver brought me here. The host is very accomodating. I felt so safe. It’s a home away from home. Tita Nitz ensured that everything is properly taken care of. She would gladly suggest what are the places you can visit and has even contacts with the people who can help you on your preferred adventure. The place is very clean. I love their interiors. I never imagined that this was an ancestral house. I love how they restore the place. They even have a wifi so you can instantly post your adventure on your social media account. You can go for a short walk in the morning or late in the afternoon at the boulevard. I love the breakfast they serve. The organic chocolate was so good. Lucky to join breakfast with my fellow guests who’s from Germany: Michael and Stefan. They have common dining area that would allow guests to interact. It was the longest breakfast I had.  I really enjoyed talking to them and hearing their travel stories. I would surely recommend this place to my friends and family. It’s not just because of their excellent customer service but that homey feeling I had experienced. They’re even adding 12 rooms so that more people got to experience their place. Thank you for the warm hospitality Third and Sean’s place. Can’t wait to be back. 😊

This is Tita Nitz and Sir Bert: my superhost. 

If you want to know more about this place, you can visit their website at . Everything is there. If you still have questions, please feel free to ask. Thanks! Goodluck on your Albay adventure. 😊

Albay Adventure

A friend from Manila visited last week and we decided to meet at Cagsawa Ruins in Daraga, Albay. Since I really want to experience adventure, I decided to take a non-ac bus. It cost me 120 pesos to reach Cagsawa Ruins from Naga City. If you’re on a tight sched, I suggest that you take van going to Daraga to avoid hassle. It took me 4 1/2 hrs to reach my destination. I can’t describe the feeling seeing the famous Cagsawa. It’s really worth it. 

You can ride an ATV aside from taking pictures. Since it’s almost sunset, I decided to bring my friend at Sumlang Lake. I’ve been there once and I was surprised by the changes made. It was more developed now. I highly encourage you to see it for yourself. And don’t forget to look for the super cool staff there who is “Kuya Jr”. He’ll gladly help you in taking your pics and even suggest different pose for an instagrammable photo. 😊

@sumlang lake with my friend, Rey